Wednesday, March 19, 2008

Six weeks plus a little

So Easter will be six weeks till my birthday. Keeping up with my goals has not been easy. I've had a lot of days that I have just not felt well at all. Most of it is hormonal, but have had some funky little virus-y type illnesses, like little bit of fever, malaise, stomachache. Sometimes it is hormonal, as in migraine, but now there is a new one--anxiety attacks, which cause insomnia and bad dreams, and something close to panic attacks. It feels very out of control. I can link it to work, and quite possibly that could also be linked to Benadryl, which I take before work for a 2-3 hour nap, or Ambien, which I take after work. Wonder if Ambien causes anxiety attacks. Typically the panic/anxiety attack will be about 12 hours after I take the Ambien.
Sigh. Time to review.
And, yes, Ambien can cause panic attacks. So guess I won't be taking that anymore. And that just reinforces my dislike of taking medicine.

Another thing I have noted is that if I drink a lot of Diet Coke, or drink Diet Coke without being well-hydrated, I have increased PMS symptoms, and a "hard" menstrual period. I will watch my intake carefully.
I have started following the "I Can Make You Thin" series. This week I am supposed to: 1) eat when I am hungry, 2) eat what I want, 3) eat consciously, 4) eat till I'm full (I think that is the last one). Eating when I am hungry is a problem, as I eat emotionally. Eating consciously is also a problem, especially when I have to stuff myself in five minutes or less for lunch at work, or shovel food in to stoke the furnace before work. Guess I will have to work on those things. Eating consciously is not so hard, and certainly eating what I want is easy. I will try to improve the eating consciously thing by turning off the television when I eat. This will also be good for Chip and I so we can talk in the evening.
I generally eat well, and have been trying very hard, not always successfully, but I would say more and more successfully, to eat well.

This I have not done very well. Working on the house has taken top priority, and although I get a lot of exercise painting and so forth, it bites into the time I usually spend devoted to exercising. All of the bedrooms are complete now, so I don't have an excuse not to lift weights. Husband got out the military workout, and we both need to start AND CONTINUE that. And since Daylight Savings Time, we have been taking walks at night when he gets home from work. Somewhere in all the moving of stuff, I lost my Pilates dvd, and one of my goals today is to find that dvd.

NOW, about that six weeks thing; I'm getting closer and closer to the 52nd birthday, and as I am actually working on Easter (six weeks before my birthday), I figured it would be a good idea to think about and recommit to those goals of being in the best shape of my life. Obviously, I am not going to be in the best shape of my life by my birthday, but the process of moving in that direction is the actual goal.

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